Starting The Day With God Isn’t The Same As Putting God First
Making God the first part of your day is not necessarily the same as putting Him first in your life.
I have been feeling sick for weeks. But nothing has changed about my day to day intimate moments with God. Wake up, pray, study, write…steal a few prayer moments during the day…evening prayer before bed. But for weeks all I hear around me is “put God first.” “Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven.”
In the back of my mind, I kept wondering why this, how am I not, what does that mean. I wrote out a list of the things I love and went down that list…Jesus over everything. No idols in my life!
One morning I woke up and I prayed and studied, and when I was done I went to WebMD to look at my symptoms. Unfortunately for me, I was dying. Well, it didn’t say dying…but you know, pretty much. As I went on to get ready for work, I pulled up IG and went to the search bar. You know how it pulls up suggestions of people and searches you previously looked at? All my searches were God and fitness one day, but last week, though, they were all symptoms.
Idols don’t just show up in things that you love. I don’t love being sick, but I had become infatuated with it. My health had become an idol for me. You should never leave prayer feeling like death. Life lies in scripture. My heart was seeking God with impure intentions.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.” (Matthew 6:33)
Father God, You are holy. You are magnificent. I glorify Your name, Lord. I repent. I ask for forgiveness, for nothing in my life takes precedence over You. You are my everything, Jesus. For I am because You are. I will serve no other God. I wait for Your will, You way, and Your timing in my life for outside of You I can do nothing. I vow to seek You with my whole heart, and with the purest of intentions. I put nothing before You, for You are ALL that I will ever need! Seeking You first, and the Kingdom of heaven! Thank You, Jesus! Hallelujah and amen!